Sometimes I wonder...

Sometimes I wonder what my life would had been like if I didn't start having chronic pain when I was 13 years young. I will be 36 on Sept 7th..so more than half my life I've had health problem after health problem. Ive been made fun of for missing school, I've lost a lot of friends, I have to be vigilant about what I eat and drink.

Sometimes I wonder what type of job I would have. If I got a chance to relive my life without the chronic pain I have...I would become an archeologist and travel all over Europe. Ive grown to love documentaries. Anything history related, I will likely enjoy watching it.

On another note, I've been noting random spasms in my face when I talk. Its happening more often now. It makes me have to repeat a word and I can feel a type of spasm around my lips I think. Im having a difficult time figuring out where it is originating. My tinnitus has been super bad lately too. It sounds like a dial up modem or police sirens...or the high pitch of wind getting through a barely cracked window. Its extremely frustrating. I use an air filter fan to create white noise so it will drown out the tinnitus. It doesn't always work but need to try something.