Rough few days

I have been in a lot of pain the past few days. I cant do the laundry without my body hurting and making me stop. I feel like im going in slow motion if that makes sense. Its like my body is trying to go slow on purpose so not to do anything that might make me hurt myself. Like fall. (Which I've done twice the past couple months)

My blood work came back with positive ANA. Being referred to a rheumatologist now. I wonder how long it will take for me to see one.

I am struggling because I need to stop working. But we don't have the money or resources to just not have me have an income. The stress and anxiety of it is making me feel worse emotionally and physically.

I dont think my family really understands how bad I feel. Which is okay in my opinion. I dont want my family to know when I am at my worst. Especially my kids.

Last night I dreamt I was in pain. In pain in the exact spot, except I was asleep. I couldn't get away from the pain when sleeping...that is why and how I get as low as I do.