Nightmares

This entire week I've been having nightmares that leave me disturbed when I wake up instead of well rested. Despite how many hours I get of sleep. That nightmare just destroys any restfullness I had.

So I was hoping to use the child tax credit for groceries and utilities and medical Bill's. Ends up not being something I can get because despite having 2 kids the child tax credit is not refundable so nope.... cant use that despite a great need for it.

I have an appt with a social security psych tomorrow at noon. I'm super nervous but I just need to be honest and open and be ready to tell my story (again). Hundreds of times I am sure now. Tell my symptoms and life and how my health has kept me from working and being a dependable person in general, it feels.

My legs have been killing me today. Jesus.

Oh and I left to get medications, had to wait because they got the wrong ones ready. (Probably just my fault). But then I noticed my car tire was nearly depleted. So I tried adding air and then realized after sitting there for 5 minutes for it to inflate there is a piece of metal and glass in the tire!!! Seriously? I have no idea how long it had been there. Got that fixed thankfully. I didnt realize how close a tire place was to my home.

But then I realized I still needed to get my correct meds and gas. Lol..... oye.

I wrote a page of my memoir today

Saw hogwarts legacy is not going to be on ps4 until April. Seriously? Only ps5 and PC and I think xbox? Whyyyy????? Now i am trying to decide if i should do the computer or wait until april for the ps4 version. I'm so broken about it. Ha. I started rereading Harry Potter to get back into the mood.

I started watching a youtuber with the username of healthygamergg. I think its GG.... I learned a lot about adhd...