Is this it?

I'm so so tired. Mentally and physically. I feel like I'm not supposed to be here.

The past couple months I have had 6 epidurals in my lower spine TWICE.

Then had those nerves burnt. They attempted to put me in twilight sedation but for my left side I felt everything. It was as if there were no numbing. But I am sure there was.

My right side felt better in days. I didnt have nearly as much pain even after walking. My left side is another story. I have not had any relief. Maybe it is a nerve above it or below it? Hell can they just burn them all?

I tried to walk around a craft fair on sunday. Did I walk too much?

It is Monday today and I am in SO.MUCH.PAIN. I felt like I was going to pass out from the pain a little bit ago. Got to my chair and just started staring at my ceiling. I can tell I am starting to dissociate. I'm starting to feel weird like I am not fully here. I am functional but feeling so outside of myself. I've been getting this way I lot when I get overwhelmed or overstimulated. I just cant help thinking, is this it?