Holy Cow im hallucinating y'all

So turned out taking Lyrica and tizanidine is a good mixture for seeing random weird shit. Ive seen random lights looking like they are going to fly towards me. Ive woken up randomly punching out at stuff and freaking my partner out. He is mostly out of it but still.

Ive got a suspicion i may have Sjogren's Syndrome. Ive got all the symptoms. Of course that doesn't matter though. The doc has to feel it in their loins to really tell you if they can diagnose you or not. What does it take to get a doctor that REALLY wants to figure you out? I sent several rheumatologists information about my situation. Then I reminded myself I have state insurance which means even if I wanted to go to the two closest states for a doctor that could help me its going to be an out of pocket bill. What is the point of having governmental health insurance if you can't use it everywhere in the US??? Augh.

I was able to loom knit for about 10 minutes on and 10 to 15 minutes off. Then again. Im maybe 1/4th done....only cause its for a smaller head. Can't explain how much burning it cause in my fingers.

I'm worried on Christmas day I will be in a bad mood. But I got to make it not about me and just about my kids. Its hard when day in and day out you are reminded your body hurts. Pounding, burning, stupid hurts.

I need a fake it until I make it smile on my face for the next week.