Doing better.

So body has been doing okay this week. Had to change around my muscle relaxers etc. Trying to exercise a bit more. Hopefully I won't have the throbbing pain and burning. Getting more sleep lately which is great.

Purposefully pushing myself to play a game. Right now I am playing Assassins creed Valhalla. Its definitely not Black Flag or have the beauty of Odyssey. Given I am 1/4th Swedish I take a certain pride in playing a viking.

Games have always been my sanity lifeline when I was younger and in pain. At one point I had more friends "online" playing world of warcraft 18 years ago. Wait, what?? I remember playing world of warcraft for the first time after Christmas morning like it was yesterday. I even remember I was chewing on frozen jerky my dad bought from a family owned butchery. He had it FedExed from Utah to California every year for nearly 10 years. It was that good. My long term memory is massive and I can remember things from 30 years ago as if I just did it. But short term memory? Trying to memorize things gives me a migriane. It's weird.

So I'm debating on keeping up with Valhalla, playing twin peaks theme hospital, civilization.... I dont play WoW anymore.... it's gotten so massive and I haven't played it religiously since the battlegrounds were introduced. Okay. Yes I'm a nerd. I used to pretty much have all my friends via ventrillo. Esp when I would start to talk and the new players in our guild realized I really was a girl.... they would stop talking and then I would hear a, "whaaat??? A girl???!!". As if girls are unable to enjoy a fantasy game just as much as a fantasy book. It was fun though and I had a ton of laughs. Esp when i was in pain. I would donmy best to hide it. I still remember even having to tell my online friends I couldn't play because I was in too much pain too concentrate. But, for the most part it did help me get my mind off of it and keep my brain busy so I didnt totally become a mute and incapable of somewhat normal human interaction.

sleep now. I haven't been able to sleep in my bed for weeks now. I am sleeping in the recliner. My back is hating me if i sleep in the bed. Gotta get some firmer pillows maybe.