Disability paperwork due

I had a nightmare last night about being one minute too late to turn in my paperwork. I woke up sweaty.

I got more documents today...that are due in 2 days. Not sure where it went when it got mailed on Dec 1st.

I have been able to sleep more now that I am not working. I feel like I can concentrate better but then I get another painful flare and I cant stand it. My depression drops like a brick. My anxiety rises like a rocket. All at one time. My worries are maybe this time the pain won't go away. Scared to the nth degree.

So I haven't commented on my Thanksgiving break because I felt bad I couldn't get around well. Walking felt incredibly hard. I was embarrassed because they got a wheelchair for me before a show we went to. And then a wheelchair afterwards. We had to walk to the hotel. I wanted to crawl up into a ball and cry. Its mainly out of frustration. I was having a hard time walking just to get to the other side of a building. How pathetic is that?

Anyway I need to work on my paperwork for this crazy disability stuff.