Day by day...

Hello, long time no blog post. I have been extremely exhausted and my body has been aching differently the past couple weeks. Ive been more irritable than usual as well. Short tempered, get to the point type of attitude. I hate it. Makes me feel nauseous.

I need to loose weight. I need to figure out a way that I will be able to exercise. I am so weak. Even doing basic things like walking through the house and picking things up makes my back seize up and spasm and it feels like I cant move. But I got to figure something out. If we had a pool I'd use it 24.7. I want to do aquatic therapy exercises but I have to be realistic. I'm not going to go enough to make a difference. Esp when it's so cold outside I don't want to leave the house. Let alone be seen in a swim suit. I dont recognize who I see in the mirror.

Starting gabapentin again i think. It made me unable to process things and be able to concentrate when I was working so I stopped using it. But im not working now so might as well try it again.

I have started macabre. It takes me forever because my fingers and hands start to throb like its sore down to the bone. At least it gives me something to work on to keep my mind going and hands moving. One project that used to are me an hour or two takes me days. Maybe ill post a photo if I ever finish it.